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is being 2 days from my last update. time jus past so fast..

yesterday went to pray her and realise time passes so fast. she pass away for 3 years. suddenly memories of me and her appear and sudden of sadness appear. yesterday reach home, the house was in darkness. and no one was at home and think alot of things. life reali suck lik dunno wat. everythin in dis world is jus too complicated. everyone have their own problems. my problems are jus too complicated for me to go solve and it make me tired about it. things around me keep on changin. family and friends are all changin. change til i dunno how to noe them. i jus wish to close up my eyes and never be awake. is too tirin for me le. dis afternoon i clean up my room and try to make myself busy and dun think too much things. but is hard. jus now when cleanin, my hand was cut by the table edge and i realise dere is not any pain at all even though it is bleedin. maybe i should try to cut myself to let me stress out my pain. but by doing dis, i felt reali stupid to do tat. maybe i should consider it. tears are droppin everywhere and everytime.

EVERYTHIN IS JUS TOO COMPLICATED FOR ME TO SOLVE AND I AM REALI TOO TIRED ABOUT IT!